so today...

well...today has been a challenge...i didn't really sleep at all last night, so i started my day exhausted and with a fog kinda hanging over my head and a heaviness hovering around my heart...some of the fears and discouragements i've been battling lately were looming large...

funny how they cast such a long shadow...full of evil foreboding...but i am reminded that they are only the shadows of things...and shadows themselves, when we cannot actually see the object from which they are being projected, can take on ghastly forms very unlike their actual sources...put simply...we can believe that what we are seeing is truly awful, when in fact, it isn't that bad...but whatever the case, we are promised that though we walk through the valley of the shadow of death, we can fear no evil for God is with us...and he makes a feast for us in the very presence of our enemies...now that's quite a scene to set...people intending us harm (enemies) all around us and God's throwing a party...

so today, i am choosing gratefulness...choosing to believe that God's promises are true and that he will not...he cannot fail me...and that all things are coming together for good...my breakthrough is coming...

PSALM 4

1 Hear me when I call, O God of my righteousness! You have relieved me in my distress; Have mercy on me, and hear my prayer. 2 How long, O you sons of men, Will you turn my glory to shame? How long will you love worthlessness And seek falsehood? Selah 3 But know that the LORD has set apart[a] for Himself him who is godly; The LORD will hear when I call to Him. 4 Be angry, and do not sin. Meditate within your heart on your bed, and be still. Selah 5 Offer the sacrifices of righteousness, And put your trust in the LORD. 6 There are many who say, “Who will show us any good?” LORD, lift up the light of Your countenance upon us. 7 You have put gladness in my heart, More than in the season that their grain and wine increased. 8 I will both lie down in peace, and sleep; For You alone, O LORD, make me dwell in safety.